The Three-Body Problem

by Cixin Liu – Translated by Ken Liu

Chapter 01 The Madness Years

Part 2

Link to Chapter 01 Part 1

Battles like this one raged across Beijing like a multitude of CPUs working in parallel, their combined output, the Cultural Revolution. A flood of madness drowned the city and seeped into every nook and cranny.

At the edge of the city, on the exercise grounds of Tsinghua University, a mass “struggle session” attended by thousands had been going on for nearly two hours. This was a public rally intended to humiliate and break down the enemies of the revolution through verbal and physical abuse until they confessed to their crimes before the crowd.

As the revolutionaries had splintered into numerous factions, opposing forces everywhere engaged in complex maneuvers and contests. Within the university, intense conflicts erupted between the Red Guards, the Cultural Revolution Working Group, the Workers’ Propaganda Team, and the Military Propaganda Team. And each faction divided into new rebel groups from time to time, each based on different backgrounds and agendas, leading to even more ruthless fighting.

But for this mass struggle session, the victims were the reactionary bourgeois academic authorities. These were the enemies of every faction, and they had no choice but to endure cruel attacks from every side.

Compared to other “Monsters and Demons”, reactionary academic authorities were special: During the earliest struggle sessions, they had been both arrogant and stubborn. That was also the stage in which they had died in the largest numbers. Over a period of forty days, in Beijing alone more than seventeen hundred victims of struggle sessions were beaten to death. Many others picked an easier path to avoid the madness: Lao She, Wu Han, Jian Bozan, Fu Lei, Zhao Jiuzhang, Yi Qun, Wen Jie, Hai Mo, and other once-respected intellectuals had all chosen to end their lives.

Those who survived that initial period gradually became numb as the ruthless struggle sessions continued. The protective mental shell helped them avoid total breakdown. They often seemed to be half asleep during the sessions and would only startle awake when someone screamed in their faces to make them mechanically recite their confessions, already repeated countless times.

Then, some of them entered a third stage. The constant, unceasing struggle sessions injected vivid political images into their consciousness like mercury, until their minds, erected upon knowledge and rationality, collapsed under the assault. They began to really believe that they were guilty, to see how they had harmed the great cause of the revolution. They cried, and their repentance was far deeper and more sincere than that of those Monster and Demons who were not intellectuals.

For the Red Guards, heaping abuse upon victims in those two latter mental stages was utterly boring. Only those Monsters and Demons who were still in the initial stage could give their overstimulated brains the thrill they craved, like the red cape of the matador. But such desirable victims had grown scarce. In Tshinghua there was probably only one left. Because he was so rare, he was reserved for the very end of the struggle session.

Ye Zhetai had survived the Cultural Revolution so far, but he remained in the first mental stage. He refused to repent, to kill himself, or to become numb. When this physics professor walked onto the stage in front of the crowd, his expression clearly said: Let the cross I bear be even heavier.

The Red Guards did indeed have him carry a burden, but it wasn’t a cross. Other victims wore tall hats made from bamboo frames, but his was welded from thick steel bars. And the plaque he wore around his neck wasn’t wooden, like the others, but an iron door taken from a laboratory oven. His name was written on the door in striking black characters, and two red diagonals were drawn across them in a large X.

Twice the number of Red Guards used for other victims escorted Ye onto the stage: two men and four women. The two young men strode with confidence and purpose, the very image of mature Bolshevik youths. They were both fourth-year students majoring in theoretical physics, and Ye was their professor. The women, really girls, were much younger, second-year students from the junior high school attached to the university. Dressed in military uniforms and equipped with bandoliers, they exuded youthful vigor and surrounded Ye Zhetai like four green flames.

His appearance excited the crowd. The shouting of slogans, which had slackened a bit, now picked up with renewed force and drowned out everything else like a resurgent tide.

After waiting patiently for the noise to subside, one of the male Red Guards turned to the victim. “Ye Zhetai, you are an expert in mechanics. You should see how strong the great unified force you’re resisting is. To remain so stubborn will lead only to your death! Today, we will continue the agenda from the last time. There’s no need to waste words. Answer the following question without your typical deceit: Between the years of 1962 and 1965, did you not decide on your own to add relativity to the intro physics course?”

“Relativity is part of the fundamental theories of physics,” Ye answered. “How can a basic survey course not teach it?”

“You lie!” a female Red Guard by his side shouted. “Einstein is a reactionary academic authority. He would serve any master who dangled money in front of him. He even went to the American Imperialists and helped them build the atom bomb! To develop a revolutionary science, we must overthrow the black banner of capitalism represented by the theory of relativity!”

Ye remained silent. Enduring the pain brought by the heavy iron hat and the iron plaque hanging from his neck, he had no energy to answer questions that were not worth answering. Behind him, one of his students also frowned. The girl who had spoken was the most intelligent of the four female Red Guards, and she was clearly prepared, as she had been seen memorizing the struggle session script before coming onstage.

But against someone like Ye Zhetai, a few slogans like that were insufficient. The Red Guards decided to bring out the new weapon they had prepared against their teacher. One of them waved to someone offstage. Ye’s wife, physics professor Shao Lin, stood up from the crowd’s front row. She walked onto the stage dressed in an ill-fitting green outfit, clearly intended to imitate the military uniform of the Red Guards. Those who knew her remembered that she had often taught class in an elegant qipao, and her current appearance felt forced and awkward.

“Ye Zhetai!” She was clearly unused to such theater, and though she tried to make her voice louder, the effort magnified the tremors in it. “You didn’t think I would stand up and expose you, criticize you? Yes, in the past, I was fooled by you. You covered my eyes with your reactionary view of the world and science! But now I am awake and alert. With the help of the revolutionary youths, I want to stand on the side of the revolution, the side of the people!”

She turned to face the crowd. “Comrades, revolutionary youths, revolutionary faculty and staff, we must clearly understand the reactionary nature of Einstein’s theory of relativity. This is most apparent in general relativity: Its static model of the universe negates the dynamic nature of matter. It is anti-dialectical! It treats the universe as limited, which is absolutely a form of reactionary idealism…”

As he listened to his wife’s lecture, Ye allowed himself a wry smile. Lin, I fooled you? Indeed, in my heart you’ve always been a mystery. One time, I praised you genius to your father – he’s lucky to have died early and escaped this catastrophe – and he shook his head, telling me that he did not think you would ever achieve much academically. What he said next turned out to be so important to the second half of my life: “Lin Lin is too smart. To work in fundamental theory, one must be stupid.”

In later years, I began to understand his words more and more. Lin, you truly are too smart. Even a few years ago, you could feel the political winds shifting in academia and prepared yourself. For example, when you taught, you changed the names of many physical laws and constants: Ohm’s law you called resistance law, Maxwell’s equations you called electromagnetic equations, Plank’s constant you called the quantum constant… You explained to your students that all scientific accomplishments resulted from the wisdom of the working masses, and those capitalist academic authorities only stole these fruits and put their names on them.

But even so, you couldn’t be accepted by the revolutionary mainstream. Look at you now: You’re not allowed to wear the red armband of the “revolutionary faculty and staff”; you had to come up here empty-handed, without the status to carry a little Red Book… You can’t overcome the fault of being born to a prominent family in pre-revolutionary China and of having such famous scholars as parents.

But you actually have more to confess about Einstein than I do. In the winter of 1922, Einstein visited Shanghai. Because your father spoke fluent German, he was asked to accompany Einstein on his tour. You told me many times that your father went into physics because of Einstein’s encouragement, and you chose physics because of your father’s influence. So, in a way, Einstein can be said to have indirectly been your teacher. And you once felt so proud and lucky to have such a connection.

Later, I found out that your father had told you a white lie. He and Einstein had only one very brief conversation. The morning of November 13, 1922, he accompanied Einstein on a walk along Nanjing Road. Others who went on the walk included Yu Youren, president of Shanghai University, and Cao Gubing, general manager of the newspaper Ta Kung Pao. When they passed a maintenance site in the road bed, Einstein stopped next to a worker who was smashing stones and silently observed this boy with torn clothes and dirty face and hands. He asked your father how much the boy earned each day. After asking the boy, he told Einstein: five cents.

This was the only time he spoke with the great scientist who changed the world. There was no discussion of physics, of relativity, only cold, harsh reality. According to your father, Einstein stood there for a long time after hearing the answer, watching the boy’s mechanical movements, not even bothering to smoke his pipe as the embers went out. After your father recounted this memory to me, he sighed and said, “In China, any idea that dared to take flight would only crash back to the ground. The gravity of reality is too strong.”

“Lower your head!” one of the male Red Guards shouted. This may actually have been a gesture of mercy from his former student. All victims being struggled against were supposed to lower their heads. If Ye did lower his head, the tall, heavy iron hat would fall off, and if he kept his head lowered, there would be no reason to put it back on him. But Ye refused and held his head high, supporting the heavy weight with his thin neck.

“Lower your head, you stubborn reactionary!” One of the girl Red Guards took off her belt and swung it at Ye. The copper belt buckle struck his forehead and left a clear impression that was quickly blurred by oozing blood. He swayed unsteadily for a few moments, then stood straight and firm again.

One of the male Red Guards said, “When you taught quantum mechanics, you also mixed in many reactionary ideas.” Then he nodded at Shao Lin, indicating that she should continue.

Shao was happy to oblige. She had to keep on talking, otherwise her fragile mind, already hanging on only by a thin thread, would collapse completely. “Ye Zhetai, you cannot deny this charge! You have often lectured students on the reactionary Copenhagen interpretation of quantum mechanics.”

“It is, after all, the explanation recognized to be most in line with experimental results.” His tone, so calm and collected, surprised and frightened Shao Lin.

“This explanation posits that external observation leads to the collapse of the quantum wave function. This is another expression of reactionary idealism, and it’s indeed the most brazen expression.”

“Should philosophy guide experiments, or should experiments guide philosophy?” Ye’s sudden counterattack shocked those leading the struggle session. For a moment they did no tknow what to do.

“Of course it should be correct philosophy of Marxism that guides scientific experiments!” one of the male Red Guards finally said.

“Then that’s equivalent to saying that the correct philosophy falls out of the sky. This is against the idea that the truth emerges from experience. It’s counter to the principles of how Marxism seeks to understand nature.”

Shao Lin and the two college student Red Guards had no answer for this. Unlike the Red Guards who were still in junior high school, they couldn’t completely ignore logic.

But the four junior high girls had their own revolutionary methods that they believed were invincible. The girl who had hit Ye before took out her belt and whipped Ye again. The other three girls also took off their belts and strike at Ye. With their companion displaying such revolutionary fervor, they had to display even more, or at least the same amount. The two male Red Guards didn’t interfere. If they tried to intervene now, they would be suspected of being insufficiently revolutionary.

“You also taught the big bang theory. This is the most reactionary of all scientific theories.” One of the male Red Guards spoken up, trying to change the subject.

“Maybe in the future this theory will be disproven. But two great cosmological discoveries of this century – Hubble’s law, and observation of the cosmic microwave background – show that the big bang theory is currently the most plausible explanation for the origin of the universe.”

“Lies!” Shao Lin shouted. Then she began a long lecture about the big bang theory, remembering to splice in insightful critiques of the theory’s extremely reactionary nature. But the freshness of the theory attracted the most intelligent of the four girls, who couldn’t help but ask, “Time began with the singularity? So what was there before the singularity?”

“Nothing,” Ye said, the way he would answer a question from any curious young person. He turned to look at the girl kindly. With his injuries and the tall iron hat, the motion was very difficult.

“No … nothing? That’s reactionary! Completely reactionary!” the frightened shouted. She turned to Shao Lin, who gladly came to her aid.

“The theory leave open a place to be filled by God.” Shao nodded at the girl.

They young Red Guards, confused by these new thoughts finally found her footing. She raised her hand, still holding the belt, and pointed at Ye.

“You: you’re trying to say that God exists?”

“I don’t know.”

“What?”

“I’m saying I don’t know. If by ‘God’ you mean some kind of superconsciousness outside the universe, I don’t know if it exists or not. Science has given no evidence either way.” Actually, in this nightmarish moment, Ye was leaning toward believing that God did not exist.

This extremely reactionary statement caused a commotion in the crowd. Led by one of the Red Guards on stage, another tide of slogan-shouting exploded.

“Down with reactionary academic authority Ye Zhetai!”

“Down with all reactionary academic authorities!”

“Down with all reactionary doctrines!”

Once the slogans died down, the girl shouted, “God does not exist. All religious are tools concocted by the ruling class to paralyze the spirit of the people!”

“That is a very one-sided view,” Ye said calmly.

The young Red Guard, embarrassed and angry, reached the conclusion that, against this dangerous enemy, all talk was useless. She picked up her belt and rushed at Ye, and her three companions followed. Ye was tall, and the four fourteen-year-olds had to swing their belts upward to reach his head, still held high. After a few strikes, the tall iron hat, which had protected him a little, fell off. The continuing barrage of strikes by the metal buckles finally made him fall down.

The young Red Guards, encouraged by their success, became even more devoted to this glorious struggle. They were fighting for faith, for ideals. They were intoxicated by the bright light cast on them by history, proud of their own bravery…

Ye’s two students had finally had enough. “The chairman instructed us to ‘rely on eloquence rather than violence’!” They rushed over and pulled the four semicrazed girls off Ye.

But it was already too late. The physicist lay quietly on the ground, his eyes still open as blood oozed from his head. The frenzied crowd sank into silence. The only thing that moved was a thin stream of blood. Like a red snake, it slowly meandered across the stage, reached the edge, and dripped onto a chest below. The rhythmic sound made by the blood drops was like the steps of someone walking away.

A cackling laugh broke the silence. The sound came from Shao Lin, whose mind had finally broken. The laughter frightened the attendees, who began to leave the struggle session, first in trickles, and then in a flood. The exercise grounds soon emptied, leaving only one young woman below the stage.

She was Ye Wenjie, Ye Zhetai’s daughter.

As the four girls were taking her father’s life, she had tried to rush onto the stage. But two old university janitors held her down and whispered into her ear that she would lose her own life if she went. The mass struggle session had turned into a scene of madness, and her appearance would only incite more violence. She had screamed and screamed, but she had been drowned out by the frenzied waves of slogans and cheers.

When it was finally quite again, she was no longer capable of making any sound. She stared at her father’s lifeless body, and the thoughts she could not voice dissolved into her blood, where they would stay with her for the rest of her life. After the crowd dispersed, she remained like a stone statue, her body and limbs in the positions they were in when the two old janitors had held her back.

After a long time, she finally let her arms down, walked slowly onto the stage, sat next to her father’s body, and held one of his already-cold hands, her eyes staring emptily into the distance. When they finally came to carry away the body, she took something from her pocket and put it into her father’s hand: his pipe.

Wenjie quietly left the exercise grounds, empty save for the trash left by the crowd, and headed home. When she reached the foot of the faculty housing apartment building, she heard peals of crazy laughter coming out of the second’floor window of her home. That was the woman she had once called mother.

Wenjie turned around, not caring where her feet would carry her.

Finally, she found herself at the door of Professor Ruan Wen. Throughout the four years of Wenjie’s college life, Professor Ruan had been her advisor and her closet friend. During the two years after that, when Wenjie had been a graduate student in the Astrophysics Department, and through the subsequent chaos of the Cultural Revolution, Professor Ruan remained her closest confidante, other than her father.

Ruan had studied at Cambridge University, and her home had once fascinated Wenjie: refined books, paintings, and records brought back from Europe; a piano; a set of European-style pipes arranged on a delicate wooden stand, some made from Mediterranean briar, some from Turkish meerschaum. Each of them seemed suffused with the wisdom of the man who had once held the bowl in his hand or clamped the stem between his teeth, deep in thought, though Ruan had never mentioned the man’s name. The pipe that had belonged to Wenjie’s father had in fact been a gift from Ruan.

This elegant, warm home had once been a safe harbor for Wenjie when she needed to escape the storms of the larger world, but that was before Ruan’s home had been searched and her possessions seized by the Red Guards. Like Wenjie’s father, Ruan had suffered greatly during the Cultural Revolution. During her struggle sessions, the Red Guards had hung a pair of high heels around her neck and streaked her face with lipstick to show how she had lived the corrupt lifestyle of a capitalist.

Wenjie pushed open the door to Ruan’s home, and she saw that the chaos left by the Red Guards had been cleaned up: The torn oil paintings had been glued back together and rehung on the walls; the toppled piano had been set upright and wiped clean, though it was broken and could no longer be played; the few books left behind had been put back neatly on the shelf…

Ruan was sitting on the chair before her desk, her eyes closed. Wenjie stood next to Ruan and gently caressed her professor’s forehead, face, and hands – all cold. Wenjie had noticed the empty sleeping pill bottle on the desk as soon as she came ine.

She stood there for a while, silent. Then she turned and walked away. She could no longer feel grief. She was now like a Geiger counter that had been subjected to too much radiation, no longer capable of giving any reaction, noiselessly displaying a reading of zero.

But as she was about to leave Ruan’s home, Wenjie turned around for a final look. She noticed that Professor Ruan had put one makeup. She was wearing a light coat of lipstick and a pair of high heels.

The Three-Body Problem

by Cixin Liu – Translated by Ken Liu

Chapter 01 The Madness Years

Part 1

China, 1967

The Red Union had been attacking the headquarters of the April Twenty-eighth Brigade for two days. Their red flags fluttered restlessly around the brigade building like flames yearning for firewood.

The Red Union commander was anxious, though not because of the defenders he faced. The more than two hundred Red Guards of the April Twenty-eight Brigade were mere greenhorns compared with the veteran Red Guards of the Red Union, which was formed at the start of the Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution in early 1966. The Red Union had been tempered by the tumultuous experience of revolutionary tours around the country and seeing Chairman Mao in the great rallies in Tiananmen Square.

But the commander was afraid of the dozen or so iron stoves inside the building, filled with explosives and connected to each other by electric detonators. He couldn’t see them, but he could feel their presence like iron sensing the pull of a nearby magnet. If a defender flipped the switch, revolutionaries and counter-revolutionaries alike would all die in one giant ball of fire.

And the young Red Guards of the April Twenty-eighth Brigade were indeed capable of such madness. Compared with the weathered men and women of the first generation of Red Guards, the new rebels were a pack of wolves on hot coals, crazier than crazy.

The slender figure of a beautiful young girl emerged at the top of the building, waving the giant red banner of the April Twenty-eighth Brigade. Her appearance was greeted immediately by a cacophony of gunshots. The weapons attacking here were a diverse mix: antiques such as American carbines, Czech-style machine guns, Japanese Type-38 rifles; newer weapons such as standard-issue People’s Liberation Army rifles and submachine guns, stolen from the PLA after the publication of the “August Editorial”; and even a few Chinese dadao swords and spears. Together, they formed a condensed version of modern history.

Numerous members of the April Twenty-eighth Brigade had engaged in similar displays before. They’d stand on top of the building, wave a flag, shout slogans through megaphones, and scatter flyers at the attackers below. Every time, the courageous man or woman had been able to retreat safely from the hailstorm of bullets and earn glory for their valour.

The new girl clearly thought she’d be just as lucky. She waved the battle banner as though brandishing her burning youth, trusting that the enemy would be burnt to ashes in the revolutionary flames, imaging that an ideal world would be borm tomorrow from the ardour and zeal coursing through her blood… She was intoxicated by her brilliant, crimson dream until a bullet pierced her chest.

Her fifteen-year-old body was so soft that the bullet hardly slowed down as it passed through it and whistled in the air behind her. The young Red Guard tumbled down along with her flag, her light from descending even more slowly than the piece of red fabric, like a little bird unwilling to leave the sky.

The Red Union warriors shouted in joy. A few rushed to the foot of the building, tore away the battle banner of the April Twenty-eighth Brigade, and seized the slender, lifeless body. They raised their trophy overhead and flaunted it for a while before tossing it toward the top of the metal gate of the compound.

Most of the gate’s metal bars, capped with sharp tips, had been pulled down at the beginning of the factional civil wars to be used as spears, but two still remained. As their sharp tips caught the girl, life seemed to return momentarily to her body.

The Red Guards backed up some distance and began to use the impaled body for target practice. For her, the dense storm of bullets was now no different from a gentle rain, as she could no longer feel anything. From time to time, her vinelike arms jerked across her body softly, as though she were flicking off drops of rain.

And then half of her young head was blown away, and only a single, beautiful eye remained to stare at the blue sky of 1967. There was no pain in that gaze, only solidified devotion and yearning.

And yet, compared to some others, she was fortunate. At least she died in the throes of passionately sacrificing herself for an ideal.

Link to Chapter 01 Part 2

Straits Times, April 21, 2010, first page advertisement:

So exotic, they’re only found at ant-hills, termite mounds and the finest restaurants.

Does an adventurous palate justify brutality? Before this delicacy reaches the table, the pangolin is smuggled in crammed cages, hammered in the head and scalded in boiling water. To save it from the chopping board, Wildlife Reserves Singapore works with enforcement agencies to stop this illegal trade. By rescuing, rehabilitating and releasing the pangolin into protected area, we can keep it far from the chef’s specials.

我的转译:

奇怪是吧,你只能在蚂蚁堆、白蚁穴以及高级餐馆见到它们。

精致的食物并不等于残忍。放在麻袋中走私,锤子敲打头部致死,热水滚烫后,鲮鲤才被端上餐桌。为挽救砧板上的鲮鲤,新加坡野生动物协会跟不同机构尽力阻止非法交易。拯救,康复以及将它们放生到保护区域,它们在菜单上消失是我们的目标。

注:如中文跟英文有冲突,请以英文为主。

昨天大陆暂停了官方能够控制的娱乐活动,为玉树遇难同胞祈祷。如果大家能够达到自发的境界,那么社会会更加和谐。这个周日受Mr. Richard的邀请,去参加一个有关保护穿山甲基金筹集会的晚宴。主体是一个叫TRAFFIC的非政府组织,监视和控制穿山甲非法走私只是他们的一个项目而已。晚宴在Hort Park举行,Hort Park有一个设计巧妙廓然开朗的小天台。一个穿白衣的小女孩从草坪的一角跑出来,跳动的白色和绿色融为一体,那一刻后悔手中没有相机,内牛满脸。晚宴嘉宾并不多,最后宣布筹集的基金好像是14千或者是40千新币,可怜英文。也皆由此认识了R的观鸟协会的朋友,节目中就有他朋友口技出20种鸟的叫声,让每个餐桌竞猜环节,有答案全对的,至于我,则是一串一串单词飘过,然后留下这段话。通过这个网页,知道了当时筹集的基金有40千呢。记得小时候听闻过穿山甲的“珍贵”,客家话里面应该叫“吉灵”,可以用来入药,已经很多年没有听过有谁看过它的出现了。根据TRAFFIC的报告,中国是一个巨大的黑洞,开始是靠近云南边境国家里的穿山甲数量剧减,现在已经扩散到马来西亚和印尼。

pangolin

R家靠近中西部,是一个大型的私人公寓,家有两层楼,类似于将上下两层楼打通的格局,布局简单又不失隆重,二楼楼梯口的英国国王查理一世油画画像据说有三百多年的历史,就是那个被砍头的查理一直,我这样的画盲只是觉得有点暗而已。一楼除了进门处宽敞的客厅,还有一个仿照旅店布局的客人房,然后隔壁则是厨房和杂物间;二楼楼梯旁则是小型的电视厅,两边分别是尽是书的书房和打通阳台的卧室。嗯,我的叙事功力退化到小学一年级了,连开头主题结尾都不会了。周一稍微股沟了一下R,结果给我的感觉是自己知道了一个巨大的宝藏,那是一个完全不同的世界。都有点后悔这个举动,Let it Be.

偏向虎山行,知难应该退。
若问何所故,都付笑颜中。
—— TDC 回车键五绝

爷爷奶奶搬出来住了,因为老家的房子已经有三十五的历史,在石基上用土砖砌成的旧房比较危险,另外年纪大了也不应该让后辈照顾。希望他们能够住的习惯,不在老家,那么就没有一些家畜和农作物去忙乎,也就能够找到新的事情来做。说到这,让人头痛的问题又来了,又是阿公在说要我生个儿子给阿婆带带。除了打哈哈,心里苦苦的味道油然而生,采菊东篱下。

2009/6/1
> 1:43 PM OMG, 九月份估计没有那么早回去
2009/6/2
> 2:21 AM 如何define是否在背后说人坏话?
> 9:22 AM 早餐:coffee O 加 饼干。谢谢Ezlyna
> 5:27 PM 男同事Wei上上个星期五生了第二个儿子
2009/6/3
> 8:53 AM 新同事实习中。。。
> 6:56 PM 去expo帮YYB找赵紫阳的回忆录未果,那个书展原来是在Suntec City
2009/6/4
> 8:11 AM 那一年我七岁
2009/6/5
> 8:36 AM 没有安排妥当,也没有brief,怎样才能够让新同事融入进来?可不想重蹈覆辙,都不想评论了
> 11:32 AM 多少年 这世间 已沧海桑田 无数次寻寻觅觅
> 却再寻不见 你那嫣然笑颜
> 生生世世 无数轮回 却无法磨灭那心中的执念
> 逆天改命穿越时空
> 纵身死形灭 魂飞魄散 只为再见你一面
>
> 多少次 依稀间 听到你的呼唤 无数次梦梦醒醒
> 心底浮现 你那双忧伤的眼
> 冥冥中 似乎一直在等待 那有力的臂弯 熟悉的胸怀
> 战火纷飞 腥风血雨
> 纵遍地荆棘 受尽磨难 这一生只为你存在
> VeryCD 武林英雄 “卷首语”
> 1:35 PM 第 48 秒
> 你轻吁一声,刷刷刷刷四剑,向剑猪胸,腹,腰,肩四处连刺。枯木剑「噗」地一声刺进剑猪的胸口,使剑猪不由自主地退了几步!造成 18 伤害。
> VeryCD 武林英雄
2009/6/6
> 12:03 AM 前几天我回老家了,因为我爷爷病重,回去看看,当我去到临江街的时候,看到临江还是那样,那唯一的一条街也烂了,你书店前搞拆迁,一片狼籍。 via DYG
> 12:20 AM 4年前超喜欢的“疯狂坦克”只能在http://www.ogplanet.com/这里找到比较类似的了,试试先
> 8:31 PM 阿南回去了,原因是想家了
> 9:50 PM LiMin做了三天就走了,是否应该认为是“管理层”的因素,不能一开始确定谁是否适合某个职位?这样下去,抱怨只会越来越大
> 10:02 PM 看了两部烂片《天启四骑士》(Horseman) 和《惊悚机场巴士》(Shuttle)

周五随CC去看他在后腰上刺一个纹身,半个小时S$150,不过这个价钱也是要根据活的难易来定的,最后的结果不是那么好,其中里面的两个“脚”不对称。在那过程中,还有一个年轻马来族女子在她男性朋友的陪同下“highlight”她背部上面的一个字体纹身,花费S$80。纹身有什么意义?特性独立,大家都去纹的时候就不是这样了,所以该是怎么样就怎么样,不必为了外观操太多心,这句话在某些场合不适用。然后一块去“浏览”了一个Sex Shop,里面道具琳琅满目,男性女性的都有,突然想起“好一个仙人洞”这句诗来——其实这句是在今天上午乱翻书时看到的。CC询问了一些信息,我感觉到不是很自在,这样的经历恐怕以后也不会有了。其实这也是为什么成立TDC的原因,大千世界,在探索的过程中保持自己的原则则可。

VeryCD还在“技术维护中”,其他的网站陆续自我解禁了,不由展望三十年的时候该是怎样子。补上六四大事记(via ZaobaoChina):

15/04:中共前总书记胡耀邦病逝,北京大学生到天安门广场张贴大字报悼念
17/04:广场上悼胡的花圈、人群越来越多,学生聚集到中南海新华门外,提出民主改革七条请愿要求
19/04:学运第一个自治组织“北京大学学生自治会筹委会”成立,军警夜间驱散新华门前静坐的学生,出现小规模流血冲突
21/04:北大带头罢课抗议军警打伤学生,十多所大学响应
22/04:胡耀邦追悼会在人民大会堂举行
24/04:北京35所大学宣布无限期罢课,抗议政府封锁新闻,上海、西安、长沙、南京等地响应
26/04:《人民日报》发表社论《必须旗帜鲜明地反对动乱》,把学潮定性为“动乱”
27/04:北京20万大学生上街抗议“4.26”社论,大批市民声援;200多名著名知识分子联署声援
28/04:“北京高校学生自治联会”成立,吾尔开希任主席
29/04:国务院发言人袁木邀请45名学生代表对话;“北高联”否认此次是当局与学生真正对话
04/05:北京逾10万大学生游行纪念五四;北京新闻工作者加入;赵紫阳会见亚洲开发银行代表时正面评价学潮,指中国不会出现大动乱。北高联宣布翌日复课
13/05:政府一直拖延对话,数千学生开始在天安门广场绝食
14/05:北京政府代表与学生代表见面对话,但学生后因电视未如政府承诺转播对话过程而宣告对话破裂
15/05:大批于广场绝食学生晕倒送院急救,各界开始声援绝食学生
16/05:中共总书记赵紫阳会见前苏共总书记戈尔巴乔夫时透露,中共仍由元老邓小平掌舵
17/05:北京爆发200万人大游行,要求邓小平、总理李鹏下台,并提出反腐败、民主化等改革要求
18/05:李鹏与学生代表在人民大会堂见面,不欢而散
19/05:赵紫阳凌晨到广场探望学生,劝学生停止绝食
20/05:李鹏凌晨在党政军大会上宣布戒严
21/05:百万香港市民上街游行,支持北京学生,并宣告成立“香港市民支援爱国民主运动联合会”(简称“支联会”)
24/05:“首都各界联席会议”在北京成立,“保天安门广场总指挥部”亦成立
27/05:香港演艺界在跑马地马场举行“民主歌声献中华”演唱会,筹得1200万港元支援北京学运
28/05:北京学生号召举行“全球华人大游行”,香港有150万人游行
30/05:学生在广场竖立民主女神塑像
02/06:学者刘晓波、侯德健、周舵及高新四人在广场绝食,抗议戒严
03/06:晚上10时,解放军开始向阻截军队的市民和高呼抗议的群众开枪,坦克和军人向北京城中心推进。有市民、学生和路人被枪杀及受伤
04/06:凌晨5时,留守广场的数以千计学生、教师及支持者在枪口下撤离
09/06:邓小平接见戒严部队嘉奖其行动
12/06:当局发布首批通缉令,通缉王丹等21名学生领袖
24/06:赵紫阳被革职,江泽民接任中共总书记

CY跟我说起他这几个星期的一件事情,还没有说之前就“评价”自己不是人。嗯,了解这种遭遇。话说每天早上他都在一个女孩的必经之路上吃早餐,在那个女孩对他微笑之前的几个星期他就一直盯着人家看。在那个蒙娜丽莎式的微笑后的第二早晨,他就跟她搭讪,然后不知道第一次还是第二次(我们就不用太追究细节)后交换了电话号码。在你来我往的过程中了解到那个女的已经有男朋友了,她对他的那句“这样我就没有机会了”的回复是“不用想太多,大家做个朋友吧”。有个场景是,某天午饭时分CY碰到她和她的男朋友迎面走来,但是这两个家伙却当作不认识对方一样。说是迟那时快,她男朋友好像弯腰去捡掉下的不知什么东东,CY就利用这个瞬间对她笑了一下,手挥动了半拍算是大声招呼,然后马上恢复老死不相来往的样子。请回答:那个女的究竟怎么想的?CY这样的行为是否妥当?这样说来你是不是也在增加你的后备军?

今天回来的路上听彭佳慧的甘愿时看到傍晚圆圆的月亮,就随手拍了几张,是时候弄个单反来玩玩了:

这张里面没有月亮啦

彭佳慧 – 甘愿 (YouTube | Youku)

爱你好像半瞑坐火车啊
梦摇来摇去心惊惶
睡了一下惊醒一下
咪眼看窗外到了哪

你的爱就像星辰
偶尔很亮 偶尔很暗
我不盼绚丽的灿烂
只求为光能挡风寒

是甘愿也就不怕难
不甘愿早放声哭喊
我要你 别的都不管
倔强变勇敢 茫然变释然

是甘愿所以能美满
不甘愿才会说伤感
我爱你 心就特别软
平淡也浪漫 无语也温暖

注:TDC stands for Tommy Discovery Channel